4 weeks left of school. I must say that I am more than ecstatic. This year has been a long one. My plan for the summer is to get ready for baby and r-e-l-a-x. Last summer, I spent a lot of my time off preparing for this school year....only to find out we were going to make a lot of team changes which basically means I wasted my time off. The only thing I do have to get ready for is my long term sub, since I will be on maternity leave for the beginning of the year. Speaking of which...
Last week I was quite emotional. Well maybe it just began than. I started to feel my maternal instincts kick in when I began to think about having to go back to work. I have never really been much of a career-driven person...mainly because having a family has always been a main priority of mine. So the thought of having to leave my baby in with someone else so that I could go to back to work this fall absolutely KILL(S)ED me! I am quite lucky, because my aunt (the one who just had a baby last year) really wants to watch her and it would be greatly convenient. However, there is just something that bothers me. Maybe I am selfish or something, but I don't want baby to grow up and be more attached to the people that watch her than her own parents! Not to mention, babies grow up too fast. I DO NOT want to miss out on a thing! I am already so much in love with her, it's hard for me to let go.
For all of the mama's out there....am I alone? Was staying home not an option and YOU had to deal with separation issues? I'd love to hear your stories and advice!